what a day.

i’ve ventured out in the cold cold barren city i live in just to buy me some sweet corn for fajitas. then some cozy Zelda gaming later. 

my family is a lesser example of real understanding. that the fact that a girl has awaken in me. they don’t understand and willl probably never. my mother especially. instead they want things to be as it always has been in their life. they use my deadname. buys me male gifts. adresses me as their «son» 

it’s unbelievable and unbearable that they are so narrow minded and unbeliving for my success. so much anxiety and pain i have endured around them only to just smile and pretend it’s okay. 

im thinking for myself. im tired of people and their opinions of everything. surely i have my own opinions. but many people want to put it onto me. because they say they «care» but no! they just don’t understand. they don’t understand the struggle i go trough everyday. and to those who actually does, thank you. 

and yet. even when i try to show them what it does to me and who i really am, they still try to say their opinion. their stupid opinion. about «you’ll never get trought this» and «it’s just another one of your chases» 

and sometimes they ask if it’s related to my adhd and autism diagnosis. wich is NOT the real case, i wouldn’t have gone to this great lenghts or stood in this place as i do today. the half year has been worse as is. 

i think the point here is to never take everything personal and never use any other persons opinion to define you. you are you and it is your right to decide for yourself and what is best for you. this belief makes you grow as a person and makes you love yourself more and more. ❤️