i need to plan my lifegoals better and structure them better. become melissa. i feel like i loose grasp on myself, just wandering and drown myself in anxiety, depression and sorrow wanting nothing but to see my goals in my hands. i look for the horizon but it’s so far so far away. it might in fact be, or it might not be. 

but what if i could give myself smaller goals to achieve the bigger goal. little by little. taking time and care to fullfill them. slowly working myself towards my big goal. 

it could be just getting enough money to remove my facial hair, permanently straightening my hair. buying new feminine clothes. getting more cute things. see the daylight more outside. 

i need to put all these things in structure and order.